Angel Wings Wednesday #4

“I am content; that is a blessing greater than riches; and he to whom that is given need ask no more.” 
 Henry Fielding

This Sunday, March 9, would have been Sarah’s due date.

I had originally thought that this week out be a “trigger” week for me, since I should have been having my baby.

But instead, I’m in a surprisingly good place.

I think the feeling of peace is twofold. Well, three, the grace of God most definitely plays a huge role.  I’m thankful each and every day that I have my faith to carry me through this tragedy.

Anyhow – I think I’m so peaceful because I really never thought of March as the time my baby would be born.  The due date is the day before my birthday, and throughout the pregnancy, I joked that I wasn’t having a baby the day before my birthday.  I was going to have my baby in February (I really didn’t think a week and a half was too much to ask.)

In addition to that, I honestly feel like I should have a three month old right now.  Despite the original due date, Sarah was born in December.  December 18 is her birthday and always will be.

I’m so very thankful for the peace that’s in my heart right now.  I know that there are still sad days ahead, but I’m glad that there are peaceful and happy days, too.